"Im Ok, Youre Ok"
In the 60s there was a very popular book called, "Im
OK - Youre OK". It was written by Eric Berne. His
theory was that every human being is born OK. Each of us is
unique and responsible for our own behavior but each of us is OK.
Therefore, the therapist or counselor makes the assumption for
every client that they are OK and he/she is OK. In other words,
the client, no matter how bad, how messed up or sinful is OK. To
relate and build a relationship you start with absolute
acceptance.
This is what happened in the story of the prodigal son. (see Luke
15:11-32) The father accepts his son totally and completely. He
is forgiven, in spite of the fact that he left the family and
blew his inheritance. Notice that forgiveness takes place with no
strings attached. When the prodigal confessed the father was not
near to hear it, nor was the son required to pay any recompense
for his mistakes. No penalties, no confession, instead, absolute,
unconditional forgiveness.
Every time I tell this story I always hear the response,
"but its not fair." The older brother complains
that he is not being treated fairly. He compares his life to his
brother and cries foul. Most of us are like him, wanting the
prodigal to be punished while we get brownie points for our
goodness. Unfortunately, it is not an "Im OK - Youre
OK" world that we live in. It is basically "Im OK
and everyone else needs to live up to my expectations, my rules,
my understanding of what is fair." We see the world much
like the older brother. We work hard, follow the rules and get
terribly upset when someone, like the prodigal, returns home and
receives a party.
I heard a story one time that really helped me understand the
reason this story is in the gospel. A woman told me that her
husband never did the dishes with her. After dinner he would take
a walk, while his wife did the dishes. When he returned he would
always, without exception, present her with a flower. She never
questioned where they came from. But, the husband told her how
much he loved her and gave her the flower as a symbol of his love
and appreciation. One evening the husband returned with a green
leaf. Apparently he was unable to find a flower. The woman did
not hesitate to say "thank you" and received the leaf
with joy. Momentarily, she thought she had been slighted but
decided to accept the leaf graciously. Forgiveness was such a
part of who she was that criticism and guilt could not find their
place in her words or actions. That very night her husband died
in his sleep.
What if the woman had not said, "thank you", like she
did every time before? What if she had been angry at him or felt
in her heart that she had somehow slipped to a lower place in her
husbands heart? This woman did none of those things. She
accepted the flower graciously, she forgave. And now she has
lived some twenty years free of guilt and sorrow for loving her
husband in spite of a simple imperfection.
Is forgiveness possible? In this case the woman was able to keep
her feelings under control and show her admiration for her spouse
although she was disappointed. But, what about more extreme
cases? The story of the prodigal is such an example.
The prodigal son story is about money. He blew his inheritance.
We are not very tolerant of relatives and others who waste their
money. We even have an evening program called,
"wastebusters", that reminds us daily of how government
or some institution blew our tax dollars. Having worked for the
military I am acutely aware of how money is wasted. But, I also
remember the intense pressure that is placed on people and the
demand for an immediate response. Lets be real, all of us
waste our money, it is just easier to point the finger when the
pot is much larger.
John Patton, who wrote, Is Human Forgiveness Possible, Abingdon,
l985, said that "Human forgiveness is not doing something
but discovering something
. that I am more like those who
have hurt me than different from them. I am able to forgive when
I discover that I am in no position to forgive."
The older brother was absorbed with his own goodness. He was not
willing to accept his brother back. Human forgiveness is not
something we can just do or say, like saying "Im
sorry" or sending a bouquet of flowers. It is something that
happens as a result of us seeing ourselves as wastebusters also.
Forgiveness means we use our energy toward moving on with life
instead of resenting the past.
All that mattered to the father in the story is that his son is
alive and he is Ok. And this is cause for celebration. He doesnt
say, "nice to have you back". He is ecstatic. When
there is a celebration there is a rebuilding of relationships.
People are reunited, healing occurs and bonds are made. A
celebration also makes a public and visible statement which
results in harmony and peace.
You often here folks say, "I can forgive, but I will never
forget". Is that really forgiveness? Or is it conditional
forgiveness? It is difficult to erase things from our memory that
have caused us pain and disappointment. However, dwelling upon
them does not help us to move forward. When we cant forgive
it is because of shame. Either we have been shamed or someone
else is ashamed. The only thing that can overcome shame is the
restoration of a relationship. That happens with unconditional
love and acceptance, the continued practice of moving ahead in
life and the realization that we too are not perfect.
Who are the prodigals in your life? Can you see that forgiveness
will result in harmony, peace and the building up of community?
Let us all remember that our willingness to forgive someone else
is directly related to our willingness to see our own
imperfections first. If we cant forgive then we are not
being honest with ourselves. We must move beyond believing,
"Im OK and you are NOT OK to Im OK and so are
you". While others may not welcome us back, God does. Gods
forgiveness is endless. Others may not give us a chance to start
over, but God does. And every time one of Gods children
comes home, God celebrates.
Dr. Keith Wagner, Pastor
St. Pauls United Church of Christ
Sidney, Ohio